Well, I'll be passing the 50k mark shortly and I just wanted to reflect a little on the past month. Against some pretty tough odds, including a breakup, quitting my job, getting a new one, taking my disabled mother to her doctors appointments, dealing with a broken water heater and the flooding that happened in the basement as well as some fun times with friends and family, I've managed to make it to within 5k of my goal.
Writing this month has been more of an escape than a duty or a job. I've learned a lot from the fabulously hilarious Gini Koch aka Captain Gini and got to watch my little fluff piece project grow and become something more substantial, something worth being proud of. This has been one of those rare times where I've been able to sit down and let the story write itself, almost as if I'm a medium, a bridge to the world I've managed to tap into. I don't want to get all metaphysical, but sometimes I wonder if all of the stories authors write that they just 'come up with' are really stories, tales and histories of alternate dimensions or alternate times. I really wouldn't be all that surprised if it were true.
All in all, I'm actually keeping a promise I made to myself, which is worth more than I can say. I'm so used to doing things for others that I was having a hard time making time for myself. I managed to kindly tell everyone to 'back the fuck off' this month and got to get some really good writing out of it. I know I won't be able to do this sort of a thing forever, though I wish I could. And when I say 'do this sort of thing' I mean give the world the bird and become glued to my computer. I know I've gotten myself into a good habit, meaning writing consistently and making time for myself, and I'm not going to give it up. But life is calling and I'm going to have to give in to demands sooner or later.
Ah well... I'm just hoping that when I finish Thistledown [probably not for another 30k after the NaNo goal] I'll have the time to edit it and get enough feedback so I can self publish it. It would be such a relief to be able to have a book under my belt. Being so close to finishing Thistledown has been revving me up for completing Jabberwocky, my big bad boy of a novel. I can't wait to turn my attention from Thistledown to Jabberwocky, though I won't be able to stay away from Thistledown for too long, I still have Thistletorn and Thistlebalm to write!
Anyway, I'm happy to have come so far and to see the goal right within my grasp. Thank you for reading through all of this and a big thank you goes out to everyone who encouraged me. It would have been near impossible without the shishboombangs!
~The Last-Stretch-Writer
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